Was I wrong to want more...
Was I selfish for wanting more flexibility in my schedule, the financial freedom to travel when I wanted or simply buy that pair of shoes because they were cute? Was I asking for too much to have a marriage I felt wanted in, friends that called me back, a job I was proud of, or a body that felt like me? Was I being unrealistic to think that if I had kids I could support and guide them and that I could be a good mom without giving up the things that brought me joy just for me?
Then there were the voices around me, the ones saying “this is how life goes, stop dreaming,” “marriage isn’t ever easy,” “friends will always let you down,” “if you have a job that pays the bills just be grateful,” “you look better than most people, whats a couple extra pounds?” or the ones who told me “you can’t be a good mom and keep that job, or those hobbies.”
There will always be voices, but it's up to us which ones we will listen to and I want you to know that ignoring those voices led me to...
A marriage I am happy in that truly does feel easy because of how we choose to support and communicate with each other. A schedule that allows me time to care for my health, in mind, body, and spirit. The financial freedom to invest in what I value and not needing to triage my finances. The chance to travel and see the world, the ability to fully love and support my kids as they become the people they were meant to be...